Mmmm...coffee. Hot and creamy. Nothing beats sipping it in a little corner of peace. I have finally got just a few minutes to sit and munch away my pb&b and drink my coffee before another busy day unfolds. We are getting ready to go on a little trip, and although we will only be gone a few days, I started the process about a week ago. Packing things for all four of us, and things to bring to friends, running here and there getting things to amuse the kids with..going away takes a lot more effort these days! But the excitement of my child waiting to go reminds me of how I used to feel when I was her age..the anticipation was almost too much to handle! We are taking them to the zoo on Thursday, their first time, and little L can't wait to see the alpacas! Not the lions, not the tigers or bears..the alpaca. haha What a girl. Its because one of her adopted aunties sent her two toy alpacas from Peru and since then she loves them.
On another fun note, since I posted last, we have purchased our first home!! Talk about a huge change for us. We have always rented, and during our renting years, we have rented two homes and loved the autonomy of it. We were fortunate to have landlords who let us have fun with painting and flowers outside, but now for the first time, if we want to pull down a wall, we can! If we want a new bathroom, we can! If we want to do ANYTHING, within reason and budget....we can!! What a beautiful feeling. I have gone through every phase of this decision making process, the anxiety of making an offer..the anticipation waiting for them to accept (and never thinking they would)...the panic when they DID... the stress of paperwork and mortgage junk...And now, the excitement of starting renovations and making this cute little storey and a half our very own! This is actually quite the combo of fun..choosing the layout, the style, the fixtures, etc..and STRESS of doing this while caring for children fulltime and my husband, the actual Journeyman doing the work, working fulltime and stretching himself to the limit for the next few months! What a good man he is. I am so happy for him, though, because he spends all day every day planning and building other people's whatevers and now he can be his own boss and use his skills to benefit himself and his family. Of course, I have been constantly combing the internet and building supply stores for deals, and no doubt most of you have heard of Houzz.com...the Mecca of home design ideas!! Oh my word, I am obsessed. Of course, most of the houses/rooms shown are highly exorbitant and for the absolute wealthiest of the wealthy, but the colours and layouts are something to go on for the cheaper of us in the world. ;)
Because our new home is a cute, little home, we are going to go cottage style. Think beadboard in the bathroom/diningroom...pine furniture and colours inspired by a spa-like nature! Once I have learned how to embed photos onto my blog, I will post pictures of the fixtures we have chosen, and keep you up-to-date with our renovation process! Any of your input or suggestions are welcome!!
Well, I think mommy alone time has come to an end, I guess I should get on with this day and try to make myself look a little more presentable! I read an article the other day that showed how a mother's poor self-image can impact her daughter for the rest of her life...So I'm trying not to allow myself to be overly critical of what I dislike about myself in front of her, but at the same time I don't want my daughter to think that pajamas and dirty hair wrapped up in a bun are my highest standards for myself. haha. I better go shower. ;)
Wowee!! I can't believe it's been 5 whole months since I last wrote...with an apology that I hadn't written in months. I'm beginning to sound like a broken record! But, I guess this time I have a pretty good excuse. We welcomed our little son into our family on October 19, 2012, and we've been helping along in his first few months of life. It's hard to believe he'll be 3 months old in just a few days. It's amazing how much you forget between children all the little steps in their miraculous development and growth. How quickly they learn to focus their eyes to meet yours...and how quickly your heart melts with love for this little person. It's amazing how we were created to bond so deeply so fast with a being that only months before didn't even exist! And now, you can't even imagine them not being there.
Our little G. is quite the individual already. He seems to be much more serious than his sister, and very much attached to his mommy...which is wonderful and at the same time exhausting! However, I'm trying to take the advice of so many other seasoned mothers and remember that this time will quickly fly by and my little boy will be way to busy to snuggle with his mommy. His sister is already smitten with him, and I hope to goodness that the mutual fascination continues and that they grow up to love each other and be friends instead of fighting with each other all the time! And of course, we have our beloved husband and daddy home with us for a few months to help out and bond with G. and it's been absolutely wonderful! I try not to think about the day when he has to go back to work fulltime.
I think that with each new event in our lives, we change somewhat, in who we are, and what we want, and how we view the world. Now that I have my baby in my arms instead of my belly, I find myself asking 'me' what it is that I want to do next. I've always been the kind of person who started a new venture with all good intentions and enthusiasm, but somehow, somewhere along the way, my interest wanes, and I never completely finish what it is I started to do. For example, for ten years I studied music with the Royal Conservatory, with the aim of becoming a piano teacher. Well, I did teach a few people, and I did get my Grade 8 practical...but I didn't do my theory exam and so that means I didn't get a diploma. If I wanted one, I have to do Grade 8 all over again, and do my theory exam within 6 months. Then I tried living in another country with my hubby and making it our home longterm, but I got pregnant and never really got to power through the tough initial months of foreign living and have enough time to get comfortable. Then I was determined I wanted to make photography my pursuit, was all enthused for a few months, and then because I couldn't afford a better camera and I saw how great others were at it, I got discouraged. Of course, I could have used my time a little more wisely and studied techniques more to improve to the best my equipment offered. So. I can only conclude the problem lies within me...procrastination and lack of determination has been my worst enemy in holding me back from progress! And if I'm ever going to feel satisfied with where I am in my life, I have to get more discipline. I don't want to look back on my years and wonder what it is I've accomplished. And, although I know raising children is a very noble thing, and I feel privileged to have my beautiful babies, I don't think that defines me as a person exactly, but is just one part of my person.
So, although I don't really believe in the idea of resolutions for the new year, I want to make this year a year of change! A year where I get a grip, and make some good decisions! Otherwise, what exactly am I teaching my children? On that note, I hope all you who stumble upon my blog, or are still following my meager posts, are well, and enjoying what life brings your way!
